Thanksgiving Wishes

•November 26, 2009 • 2 Comments

To all my fellow U.S. residents, a “Happy Thansksgiving Day” to all of you. To my Canadian neighbors, belated well-wishings, since y’all celebrated yours in October.

Of course, with feasting and socializing, I won’t be doing much work, if any, around the blog for the next few days. :-)

However, rest easy in the knowledge the the next chapter of “Bad Girl” is at least half-written, and should be finished by next week; another chapter of “Seven Sins” is all but finalized, and thus also will be unveiled next week (and I might finish up the final chapter this weekend in my evening hours); I’m getting close to submitting some superhero fan fiction stories that will, I hope, be posted on SmokingStories.net soon; and I’ll be back to work on “Picture Perfect” soon, too.

Later, my friends.

The Doctor Is In—Seven Sins Part 7

•November 25, 2009 • 2 Comments

Sorry for the delay in getting this out. It involves some fetishes that I am not personally familiar with, so I had to do some intense and very arousing research. This is a long chapter folks, so grab a beverage or something. ;-) The next two after this, which will finish out the series, will be much shorter. (In fact, part 8 is already written. I’m just hoping a female erotica writing peer will be able to glance at it and give me some input before I post it. But if she can’t, it will be up by early next week regardless.)

The Doctor Is In

By Smokedawg

(Part 7 of “Seven Sins” – Click Here for list of all current chapters)

We woke around the same time that next morning, and it was odd for me to greet the day with a pair of tits, and the remainder of my smeared and smudged makeup on my face. Oh, and the long strawberry-blond hair was new to wake to as well—I was amazed that the wig had stayed put all night.

“I’ll take my shower first and get the coffee and stuff going,” she said, and then pointed to the vanity table. “You might want to get some cold cream and start taking off your makeup before you shower. Would my sexy little bitch-slut like an omelet this morning?”

“Your little bitch slut—and thanks for calling me sexy—would love that. I enjoy dining on anything you have to offer me,” I responded, my gaze drifting over everything from her waist down.

“As you’ve proven over and over these past four nights,” she answered with a wink.

Later, when I walked into the kitchen, my wife looked at me through the steam from the coffee cup perched at her lips, and tilted her head—seeming to be examining me. I realized that out of habit, I had put on my old robe, and not the silky pink number she had bought me yesterday.

“Oh,” I said. “I’m sorry honey. I’ll go back and put on the little pink one.” I amazed myself at how easily those words rolled off my tongue, and how natural it felt to say them.

She laughed and then wiped her eyes, smiling. “No, no, no,” she said. “You’re fine, my darling. I was just looking at you and recalling last night, and realizing that when we make you over like that, you really are a whole different person. My horny little lesbian Amy with the monstrous and explosive clit. No, you’re not a woman today. Not for any of my next three nights of surprises, either. In fact, we’ll only be femme-ing you up a few times a week, at most. I’m still inclined toward having a husband, not a wife.”

I felt an odd sensation in the back of my head when she said the last part—the conflicting feelings of relief and disappointment. It was a jarring sensation. I sat down to drink my coffee, and she went to put my omelet on a plate for me. She watched me while I ate, sipping her coffee, and then smiled mysteriously.

“Today, I will need you gone most of the day,” she said. “I’m expecting several deliveries, and they all involve tonight’s festivities, and I don’t want the surprise ruined. I’m going to have our guest bedroom turned into a very adult  playroom temporarily. In a few weeks, a crew will be coming by to begin an expansion on our house—a nice roomy addition that will be our permanent playroom. Something larger so that I can have all sorts of toys and themes.”

Deliveries. Plural. Just like the delivery of the bondage rack before, I realized. And the sudden appearance of a prosthetic pair of breasts last night—something that my wife had to have ordered weeks in advance. It was clear to me now that all of this had been planned long ago. Perhaps beginning shortly after I let slip about my intense smoking fetish. After I gave her the leverage she needed. The hook that she could use to lift me up and set me square in the middle of her dark fantasies.

I was still a little frightened, as there were three more kinks to go; she was having things delivered that were big enough to fill up the modest guest bedroom; and I couldn’t help but notice that each night, her fantasies pushed my boundaries farther. Each new kink was more intense and provocative than the last. She was building toward something. I longed to find out what it was, but that didn’t stop me from being a little concerned about it, too.

Between mouthfuls of her wonderful cheese omelet, I asked, “So, is there anything in particular you want me to do to keep myself busy?”

“Well, for one thing, you can buy me cigarettes, and lots of them. I’m liking this little habit, and maybe getting just a bit of a fetish for it myself,” she said. “Or maybe I always did and have been hiding that fact all along. Maybe I’ve been a closet fetish smoker all this time and you got me to agree to something I would have done willingly anyway, and chained yourself to my kinky desires in the process. Wouldn’t that be wicked of me?”

“Yes, it would,” I said, and there is no way she could have missed the way my voice deepened just a bit in arousal, my body feeling a rush of hormones at the thought of how wicked she had been already, and how much more wicked she might yet become.

“You can pick the brands. And yes, I mean brands—plural. It’s your fetish mostly, and you should have a hand in picking them from now on. In fact, I give you carte blanche, as long as you steer clear of unfiltered cigarettes and big cigars. I’m a lady, and I want you to keep that in mind. As for other errands I want you to do, I’ll make a list, but first will be to go to your job today, and clear out your stuff. Leave a resignation note on your desk.”

“You want me to quit my job?”

“Yes, I think things will work much better if we free up your time. More ability for us to play, and for you to help run things for me around the house. Besides, you’ll be making appearances once a week or so at my offices as Amy. I have work for her. Real work. And fun work behind closed doors, too.”

The thought both thrilled and terrified me. “Don’t you think your staff will…”

“They won’t catch on. And if they do, so much more the guilty thrill for you. Shame seems to put some interesting twists on your libido, all of them appealing to me. For your first few visits to the office, you’ll just act shy and not talk above a mumble. I doubt that will be much of a stretch, since you’ll be embarrassed anyway. I’m hiring a voice coach to help you work on a female voice; you’ll be starting with him next week. I’ll be even happier screwing ‘Amy’ when she sounds girly.”

“Don’t you think we should have two incomes, especially in this economy?”

“Why? I own and run my own business. We bought this house outright, and we didn’t get an extravagant one. Both of our cars are modest and efficient—and paid for. We haven’t lived lavishly and haven’t borrowed against our equity. Neither of us wants kids. We don’t even have pets. If my company tanked tomorrow, we could live lean for three years on what we have in savings. Not that we’d have to resort to that, because one of us would find work soon enough. Besides, you can do some part-time consulting or freelance work to keep up your résumé and keep yourself in the game. I don’t have enough tasks to give you to occupy all your time. I just don’t want you tied to your boss’ whims.”

“All right,” I said. It felt odd to give up my full-time career, but I couldn’t find the will—or a reason, for that matter, to argue. I’d still be working, just half the time for myself and half the time for my wife. “I’ll go free myself of my boss’ whims today.”

“Because, you know, I need you dedicated to my whims, and available to fulfill them at my will,” she said quietly and firmly. “Till death do us part.”

* * *

When I returned home much later that day, with the evening approaching, an unfamiliar car sat in our driveway, and I found myself doubting highly that it was some unexpected visitor. Whatever my wife had planned, it involved the assistance of someone else. The only question that remained was whether the assistant would be leaving before things began, or if I was going to have to endure the humiliation of an audience for whatever tonight held for me.

And would that be so bad if there was an audience? Would it make things more enjoyable?

When I opened the front door and walked into my house, the sight that beheld me simply befuddled me. There in our foyer was a small desk, complete with computer, telephone and a few file folders—and behind that desk, a nurse.

A wire had been run up almost at ceiling level, along the near edge of our living room so that my wife could hang a long, lightweight curtain there to hide it from view. Whether she had surprises waiting there for me behind it or whether this was simply to enhance the illusion that I had entered some kind of medical office or clinic was as yet unclear.

The nurse smiled as I approached, unfazed by my confused expression—no doubt because she was playing a role, and had been warned that I would not know what to expect when I arrived home.

She wasn’t precisely what I would call pretty, but she had a very cute face, so she wasn’t hard on the eyes, with shoulder-length, black hair, bright blue eyes, and dimples to accent her warm grin. My wife’s previous behavior might have led me to expect some kinky or erotic-style nurse’s uniform on the woman, but the outfit looked very much like one that any working nurse would wear.

“Mr. Smith, you’re right on time for your appointment,” she said, and whether she had any idea that my name wasn’t Smith—or whether she cared—was something I couldn’t begin to read on her face.

But it was clear that I was supposed to be Mr. Smith for tonight’s escapades, so I simply nodded and said, “Yes.”

She picked up one of the file folders from her desk, still smiling, and extended her arm toward the hallway that led to the bedrooms. “Well, there is no wait for the doctor today, so let’s head straight for the examination room, shall we?”

What else could I do? I followed, and admired her very round, full ass as I did.

When we reached what had once been the guest bedroom—and I supposed would be again in a couple months—the nurse opened the door and ushered me inside. What greeted me looked every bit like a physician’s examination room. Even the small half-bathroom connected to the bedroom, as I could see through the ajar door, had been stripped of homey decorations and now looked totally utilitarian.

Once we were inside the “exam room,” she closed the door. “Dr. Jones will be along soon, but she has left me with instructions to begin taking your information and vitals,” the woman said.

Smith and Jones. Well, knowing my wife had more originality than that even on a bad day, I took it for the subtle joke that it was. Or perhaps it was the kinky-evening-with-hired-nurse-in-house equivalent of signing in at a motel with a false name like “John Doe.”

“Of course, um, Nurse…”

“Betty,” she said. “You can just call me Betty. No need for titles with me, though I wouldn’t suggest calling Dr. Jones by her first name.”

Betty. Of course. The woman looked very much like fetish pinup legend Bettie Page, but with slightly shorter hair, and “Nurse Betty” was one of my wife’s favorite movies. Or maybe, just maybe, her name really was Betty. I doubted I would ever know for sure, knowing my wife. Especially now, knowing my wife in this newer, more mysterious version that she was so confidently growing into.

The whole situation was made all the more surreal and unnerving by the fact that Betty was indeed acting like a nurse normally would. She asked all the standard “getting to know your medical history” questions, she took my blood pressure and checked my eyes and ears and throat and, perhaps most unnerving of all, took a blood sample. No doubt that caused my blood pressure to skyrocket, but I kept reminding myself that my wife would hardly have gone to all this trouble and then hired someone who didn’t know how to use a needle.

“Oh,” Nurse Betty said at last. “I will need you to strip now. You can put your clothes on the table over there.”

I complied, wondering when my wife was going to come into play as the physician, and wondering just how far this would go, given the realism that had gone into this so far. I stood there in my underwear and socks, and Betty looked at me with a charmingly scolding little shake of her head. “Tsk, tsk, Mr. Smith. Surely we made clear to you when you scheduled this appointment that you needed to be compliant with all of our directions and therapies. I said to strip. Down to the skin, sir.”

I pulled off my socks, and finally, reluctantly—not having been seen completely naked by a woman other than my wife since my bachelor party years before—took off my boxer shorts as well.

“Excellent. Boxers are an excellent choice, Mr. Smith. So cruel when men crowd their testicles into those tighty whities. After all, it’s only the women who should restrain a man’s block and tackle, right?”

I flushed then, I’m sure, and I doubt that only my cheeks turned pink and then red, knowing now without question that this woman was fully aware of what kind of evening this was, and was my wife’s aide and accomplice in a most intimate game.

“Now, I will need to take your temperature, Mr. Smith. Please, if you would, bend over the end of the exam table.”

I did so, gripping each side of the table lightly, feeling incredibly exposed with my bare ass in the air for this stranger to see. Figuring that I should at least attempt to be an active part of the scene being played out, I asked, “Couldn’t we just take my temperature orally?”

“Oh, men, always so interested in oral, and so skittish about anal—at least with their own bodies. Of course, Dr. Jones’ records indicate that you’ve been previously…acclimated to anal probing,” Betty said, sliding one latex-gloved had across my ass slowly.

I shivered then, not with fear but with the suddenness of this change from a very typical nurse to one that knew far too much about me, and was being far too personal. My cock had begun to stir slightly, and I felt myself flush even hotter at that knowledge.

I felt a sudden, cool sensation against the clenched bud of my ass, and then a slick sensation as a generous glob of KY jelly or Vaseline was smeared there. And then I felt the thermometer slide home, very slowly. After having had my anus invaded multiple times recently by my wife, digitally and with dildos, I had no problem accepting this small intrusion. And I think Betty knew that, or was told to expect some ease, because she was doing her utmost to prolong the process, and then started swirling the device in lazy spirals, one of her thumbs simultaneously tracing firm spirals on my left butt cheek. I realized that it seemed larger that it should be, and wondered what kind of thermometer was in my ass.

It took her at least 10 minutes to take my temperature, which was certainly far longer than needed. I mentioned that to her somewhere around the halfway mark, and she shushed me harshly, so I didn’t make any further comment. Satisfied that she’d “taken my temperature” to what was likely my wife’s satisfaction, she pulled out he thermometer suddenly with a moist popping sound, and instructed me to sit up on the exam table. The sterile paper strip down the middle of it crinkled as I did so, and my ass, very over-lubed, stuck to it with a greasy clinging sensation.

“So, Mr. Smith, you have expressed to us a problem with recent ‘exhaustion’ of your genitals and slightly impacted bowels,” Nurse Betty offered. I couldn’t help but notice the way she emphasized the word “impacted,” letting me know she knew precisely was kind of “impact” my ass had been receiving recently, and from whom. As for the exhaustion of my genitals, I had to admit that as amazing as the past several nights had been, I wasn’t used to having sex every day, and sometimes with more than one release, and wasn’t entirely sure at what point my penis would just tucker out.

Knowing that I was supposed to simply play along, I said, meekly, “Yes, those are my medical concerns, Betty.”

“Well, we are going to attend to both problems, Mr. Smith. The therapies are intense and very personal…I mean, personalized…to your needs,” she said with a slight leer in her voice.

“Nurse, is the patient ready?” my wife said from just outside the room, and I heard a familiar clicking noise as well. “I’m quite busy.”

“Yes, Dr. Jones. I do believe Mr. Smith is quite ready for the first phase of therapy, the genital stimulation treatment.”

“Good,” my wife said, entering the room. She was wearing a white physician’s coat and stethoscope over a lacy white bodice, short gray suede skit, white stockings and high-heeled ivory shoes. She stopped, exhaled a plume of smoke, and stood there looking me over, her hand cocked femininely beside her face and smoke rising in slow, sinuous threads up toward the ceiling.

The incongruity of a doctor smoking in her office—even though I knew my wife was no physician and this was no clinic—struck me hard in my libido. It was such a wrong image, and yet played right into my fetish. The fact that the cigarette was being held by a purple nitrile exam glove simply added to the effect. I suspect her use of the smoking was mostly to soften me up and make me less willing to fight what was to come, but I wasn’t about to complain.

The so-called Dr. Jones sauntered over to me, inhaling more smoke and leaving a stain of burgundy lipstick on the white filter, and began to examine my erect penis and firm balls with one purple-gloved hand as she blew smoke down around them. She was slow and thorough with the examination, and lovingly gentle. The almost-slick feel of the thin exam glove added a special thrill to her touches. Totally inappropriate physician behavior, and I decided the least I could do was play along, and react “appropriately.”

“Dr. Jones, I feel somewhat uncomfortable with this examination,” I said, and I wasn’t entirely acting when I said that, as I could only guess at what was in store if the theme was medical for tonight’s kinkiness, and was indeed a little nervous. “Both you and Betty seem to have very intimate knowledge of me, and you seem to be getting a bit more intimate as time goes on.”

“Yes, we do, and yes, we are,” my wife answered, blowing a soft stream of smoke toward my mouth. “You wife has briefed us on certain aspects of your case and provided some suggestions for therapeutic interventions.”

“Also, I wonder about the healthiness of smoking in a doctor’s office,” I said, my voice wavering not from fear but from the way that ‘Dr. Jones’ was now more firmly massaging my scrotum. “And why is my wife providing input? Don’t we have doctor-patient confidentiality?”

“Mr. Smith, smoking is a very important part of our therapy here, as we have been told it makes you tractable, and I do so want to have you calm for our procedures, without having to have Betty give you a shot of something stronger in your buttocks,” Dr. Jones answered, continuing to act as if she wasn’t my wife. To punctuate my wife’s point, Betty picked up a hypodermic needle that was filled with something—it might have been saline solution or might actually be some kind of drug, and I was suddenly feeling real concern again at how far my wife might be willing to go with all of this. “As for confidentiality, I can promise you that what happens in this exam room, stays in this exam room. Except that your wife will know everything. And isn’t that a woman’s right, Mr. Smith? To call the shots, and to know all?”

My wife was stroking my cock now, the purple glove contrasting with my skin, and she drew deeply on her cigarette again, and bathed my face in a generous plume of smoke.

“I understand, doctor,” I said, somewhat shakily, and silently let her continue the “examination” as Nurse Betty began to attach some sort of soft fabric cuffs to my ankles and then to my wrists. After a couple minutes of feeding me her smoke, but drawing short of giving me actual smoky kisses, she stubbed out the smoldering butt, and smiled. “I think you’re ready, Mr. Smith, for phase one.”

With that, I heard a click to my right, and as I looked down to see that my right wrist was now clipped to the exam table, an identical click sounded to my left, and then Betty proceeded to secure both my ankles as well. I was now locked to the table. My wife, as Dr. Jones, spread my thighs apart gently but firmly with her gloved hands, and then Betty wrapped some kind of soft strips of material around each thigh and then tied them off to some clips or rings beneath the edge of the table, ensuring that I couldn’t close my legs. My cock and balls were now totally exposed to them. I was helpless, and my mind wandered back to my leather bondage that first night of our “seven sins” pact.

“Mr. Smith, this is a TENS unit,” Betty said, holding up a rectangular device that looked like it could be a voltage meter, or large smart phone, or strange remote control, or almost anything electronic. “Transcutaneous electrical nerve stimulation device. It is used to send electrical impulses to certain parts of the body to block pain signals, to help patients deal with chronic pain. It can also be used to deliver electrostimulation to various parts of the body with the use of electrodes or probes. Especially if it’s been modified for slightly more ‘oomph,’ as this one has.”

My heart began to beat a bit faster, both in curiosity and growing concern. “You’re going to shock me?” I asked tremulously.

“Nothing so crude as that,” my wife said, stroking one of my thighs, and attaching an electrode to each of my testicles, both of which were attached by wires to a TENS device of her own. “This is not some kind of electro-shock therapy, Mr. Smith. This is not about aversion but about…stimulation.”

As she spoke, Nurse Betty was sliding some kind of ring down the shaft of my penis, and then tightened it slightly as she reached the base of it.

“Electrostimulation,” Betty said, and turned on her unit.

My heart leaped into my chest at first with worry, but then my panicked gasp was replaced by a surprised “Oh.” And then a low “Mmmmm” coming unbidden from my lips a little later, and shortly thereafter, moans.

It had started as a light tingling sensation. It didn’t sting. It wasn’t a tickle. It wasn’t an itch. I don’t know how to describe it, but it felt a little like dozens of tiny little fingers on my cock, prodding and teasing at my flesh.

And then she increased the level of stimulation apparently, and it felt more like my cock was buzzing. It was as if my own skin had been turned into a low-level vibrator. My hips began to gyrate in lusty reaction to this, the paper beneath my ass crinkling loudly.

And then Betty turned it up again a few minutes later, and my cock was throbbing. But it wasn’t like I was being given a handjob. Instead, the throbbing seemed as much inside my penis as around the outside of it. “Oh, God,” I said, my ass grinding against the table more firmly as I found myself wishing I could touch myself; hoping someone else would soon to finish me off and make me come. The paper on the exam table, stuck to my ass from the remains of the lube from my earlier examination, began to rip and tear, and I could feel the leather of the table—or whatever material it was—against my skin now.

“Nurse, I do believe the patient is responding well,” my wife said, a purring note of satisfaction in her throat. “I believe it is time to activate my unit.”

I had forgotten that she had one as well, and gasped as she turned it on, and my balls began to itch a little, and then buzz when she turned it up, and then pulse with pleasure as she turned it up again.

My cock and balls were now in total, throbbing synch, and my moans were becoming more primal; my desire for release more intense—and the movements of my hips more intense.

And then Betty turned off her TENS while my Dr. Jones’ remained on. And then a few minutes later, my wife turned hers off and Betty suddenly turned hers back on to full force. And then my wife turned hers back on again by slow degrees.

They did that to me for a long time. An hour, I think, though my sense of time was becoming harder to keep hold of as they drove me mad with stimulation and no release. They altered their intensity and which one’s unit was on—or often both—and it was entirely random. I didn’t know where to expect the stimulation anymore, nor how much.

I was begging them to let me come. Pleading with them to touch me. They never acquiesced, and they never addressed me directly. Instead, the talked with each other at various intervals, commenting on the intensity of my response, making observations about my ‘arousal thresholds,’ laughing softly at my pleas, and more. But they ignored my words, and my needs. They tortured me with teasing, electrical pleasure and gave me no quarter.

When finally they both turned their units off, at the same time—the first time that had happened—I opened my eyes, realizing I was crying with pleasure and frustration, and I saw that my wife’s arm was around Nurse Betty’s waist, and Betty’s head leaning on Dr. Jones’ shoulder as they both looked at me intently. Curiously. Even passionately, I think.

“That was very, very good, Mr. Smith,” my wife cooed. “You have been an excellent patient for phase one.”

“Please…”

“Mr. Smith,” Nurse Betty interjected, “it is very important that you let us do our work without distracting us with your perceived needs. The doctor and I know exactly what you need.”

With that, she toweled off my sweat-beaded forehead.

“Mr. Smith, we are going to progress to phase two now. I trust you will be fully compliant and follow our instructions to the letter.”

I nodded, fearing that if I tried to speak, I would only get myself into trouble now. The time to play the role of anything but a submissive fetish patient was long past, I suspected.

Betty left the room to go into the bathroom, and I heard slight splashing noises and the sound of running water as my wife ran gloved fingers up my legs, across my torso, and across my throat. She pretended at times to be examining certain portions of my body. At other times, she made no pretense and was wantonly intimate with me, and a couple times over the next ten minutes she was intimate with my asshole. She never spoke. Except once, when she leaned over, and whispered, “We have a thin probe for the TENS that is useful for entry into the urethra,” she hissed softly. “That is phase three, for another time. Imagine the possibilities.”

I did imagine it, and wondered at how much discomfort would precede what I suspected would be new heights of sensation.

When Betty returned, she was wheeling in a tall metal stand from which was suspended a large bag of fluid with a long tube and some sort of clamping devices. She maneuvered it near to the exam table and then began to undo my restraints.

“Mr. Smith,” my wife said gravely. “You will get on your hands and knees on the exam table, and you will lean your chest against the table to elevate your buttocks. You will not resist therapy in any way. Is that clear?”

I nodded, and quickly complied. It was not lost on me that they hadn’t removed the electrodes from me, and I did my best to ensure that I didn’t dislodge them.

“This will help us deal with your impacted bowels,” Betty said, and once again, with emphasis on the word “impacted.” I had never received an enema before, and that was surely what was about to happen—something that filled me with no small amount of foreboding—and I knew I didn’t need one.

But my wife needed me to have one, clearly.

And I needed to bend to her will.

I twisted my head around to see “Dr. Jones” smearing a generous dollop of KY jelly on the nozzle at the end of the enema tubing and then saw Betty take a huge dollop to make my rear entry slick and yielding, and give me a quick rimjob with her fingertip. She had much more lube than she needed, and seemed to take particular delight in pressing her finger up inside me, far past her second knuckle, and then, once she was done there, spreading the remainder all over my cheeks, thighs and lower back.

Placing her thumbs on either side of the cleft of my ass, Betty spread my cheeks wide, and my wife slid the enema nozzle home with scant resistance from me. Holding the nozzle and tube in place, my sexy physician-clad wife pressed her cheek to my face and whispered low and sultry in my ear: “Get ready for a very wild ride, Mr. Smith. When we are done, you will have to hurry to the bathroom. Trust me. You’ll understand why soon enough.”

I felt a trickle into my bowels at first, warm and ticking and strange, followed by a more insistent rush of warmth. It gave me a stretching, cramping pain at first—things were supposed to come out this route, not go in—but even as I winced, I also felt a moan brewing in the back of my throat.

This was a slowly growing fullness inside me that I had never known. It wasn’t like constipation but rather a connection between me the bag of fluid over and behind me and, by extension, a connection to the two woman controlling that flow of liquid.

“You’re doing so very well, Mr. Smith,” my wife said soothingly in my ear, kissing the sensitive flesh behind it delicately. “So well for your first time. I’m so proud of my patient.”

The invasion of my bowels continued with liquid heat, swelling and filling me to the very core of my being, and a I moaned fully now.  A long, low moan like nothing I had ever let out. Something almost animal in it.

My wife stroked the back of my neck with one slick, gloved hand, soothing me and cooing to me. “Just relax and give in. The flow cannot be stopped, only accepted. Take it deep inside. Deeper than your wife could go,” she said, not giving up her Dr. Jones persona. “Do you feel it inside you?”

“Oh, godddddd, yes. I felt it. So warm. I feel like a balloon. I feel…uhhhnnn…God!”

“A balloon. Yes,” Dr. Jones said, “and I’m stroking you now, like a balloon.” Her free hand roamed gently across my ass, over my lower back and then to my abdomen. She stroked me so tenderly, and I felt even fuller with the gentle pressure of her hand on my belly.

My cock was hard, and my brain was reeling with the strange combination of sensations. This shouldn’t feel good. I was certain it shouldn’t feel good. Yet it did.

“So….wrrooooong…” I moaned.

“So right, Mr. Smith,” my wife whispered soothingly. “You can’t help it, really. The arousal, the surrender, the erection. You’re helpless to us and to the warm, warm water filling you. Pressing on your insides, filling you like some amorphous cock. You’re being violated, and you love it. You can’t help but love it.”

Her free hand slipped to my cock now, and began to stroke it slowly. There was lube enough on her nitrile glove to provide plenty of slickness, and I began to slowly pump in rhythm to her strokes. “More flow, Nurse,” my wife said.

And with another turn of the valve, more warm swelled and surged inside me, more insistent than before, and my moans became more guttural, like growls. And they wouldn’t stop; I couldn’t stop them any more than I could stop the flow of water into my bowels.

“Do you enjoy having us fill you up with water? Filling you up like the slut you are?” Dr. Jones said to me, no longer whispering, and now Betty’s hands stroking my belly and back tenderly. “You’re almost full now. The water is almost at an end. But hold on to your cum, Mr. Smith. Hold on to it until the end. You’ll know when that is. Trust me. Trust Dr. Jones.”

I was so full now, feeling like I might burst, and there was pressure in strange places now. My prostate gland? Oh, God. Inside, outside. And then, when I felt like I couldn’t possibly hold anything more inside me, my cock and balls began to thrum and pulse as both TENS units were turned on full-blast. I was filled with warm water, pressing, insistent. My skin was being titillated and rubbed, my cock was slick and pumping, and now my nerves were set alight by the TENS units.

I screamed, and I came hard, bucking into my wife’s hand—Dr. Jones’ slippery gloved fingers. I was spraying against the exam table and suddenly Betty was there licking it all up at my wife’s command, and then kissing me with her dripping lips as my wife continued to pump me. There was nothing left to ejaculate, but my orgasm wouldn’t seem to end. I throbbed and humped and kept coming dry, and then Betty’s mouth was gone from mine and the electrodes were pulled quickly from my skin and Dr. Jones was telling me to go to the bathroom now. The enema nozzle was pulled from my anus and my mind was filled with an imperative like I had never felt before and I was in the bathroom and on the toilet faster than I could have imagined.

When all was done, and I exited the bathroom, panting and spent, Betty was on the exam table, legs spread, and spreading her labia with glistening, gloved fingers.

“Show Nurse Betty your appreciation,” Dr. Jones directed me.

I half stumbled to her, and kneeled before her and lapped at her. A smell so like my wife’s and yet distinct. And then my wife was stroking the back of my head as I licked, and she pressed me deeper into Betty. Clearly, I wasn’t the only one who had been aroused by the experience, as Betty came in my mouth, squirting, within five minutes. Then four hands were stroking my face and head and neck, and telling me what a fine, compliant patient I was.

Betty slid from the exam table, and my wife said, “Schedule Mr. Smith for a follow-up appointment four weeks from today, before you head home, Nurse. I’ll need you for overtime that day, of course. Make a notation that we will add phase three to the next visit, in addition to the other two, and perhaps phase four as well, depending on the patient’s tolerance.”

“Gladly, Dr. Jones,” Betty said as she left, ass swaying gently in satisfied little waves. “I think he’ll find those phases edifying.”

Already knowing that phase three involved being electrically stimulated inside my penis, I truly worried what phase four could be.

And at the same time, I couldn’t wait for that next appointment nearly a month from now.

My wife took off the physician’s coat, stethoscope and gloves, and smiled. “Darling, you should go shower now. And then you will lick me to a pair of orgasms, since my first one will be quick in coming, and then we’ll get some rest. I think your therapy will leave you sleeping quite soundly tonight.”

I smiled, and kissed her deeply before I left this makeshift, temporary fetish playroom, and knew that she was likely right.

Pushing the Limits

•November 24, 2009 • 4 Comments

Writing on this blog, and commenting at other sex- and erotica-oriented blogs, I am often reminded of my boundaries, both hard and soft. Those things that I totally cannot get into and those things that make me cringe a bit, but sometimes also entice me at the same time.

Although some of the stories on this blog are solely smoking-related, my stated goal in starting it…a goal that I often have to remind myself to fulfill…is that I seek to combine the smoking fetish with other kinks and outright fetishes. Sometimes it’s a “mainstream” or “traditional” kink like bondage or submission. Other times, it’s something more serious, like pure sadism. The vast majority of times around here, I have stuck to fetishes and kinks that are within my comfort zone. And that’s how it should be, most of the time, because it ensures that I’ll be into the story more…as well as more likely to write it well.

But, I feel as though I have to push myself at times. I’m not bi-curious, but in one series, it was absolutely necessary to include man-on-man sex at times. My “Seven Sins” series is about to delve into areas in which I have either no interest or virtually no knowledge, meaning some serious Internet research on my part, and concerns about whether I’ll be able to write erotically on something I have little or no personal interest in.

The thing is, though, all of this reminds me not just of my comfort levels and “safe zones” in my writing but also in my own sexual life.

For the most part, my wife and I haven’t done much kinky stuff. In recent years, she indulges my smoking fetish to various degrees. But not often, as she is a smoker who feels a little ashamed and self-conscious about her smoking. Also, she often just prefers more straightforward sexual activity that doesn’t involve much preparation or extras. That said, we have had messy foodplay at times, she’s taken me in the ass a couple times, and we’ve toyed with light bondage and discipline stuff. And so on.

But there are other things that we might do, and haven’t yet. My wife has one a couple occasions mentioned curiosity about watersports (as in golden showers and such, not swimming or water polo), though she hasn’t gotten around to asking for or initiating any of that. She also would like to see me in action with another guy (though it’s unclear what kind of action she wants…she seems shy about telling me).

I’ve told her that I am more than willing to try to meet her needs in those areas, even though they aren’t my personal things. For example, I’m not bi-curious, but I’m bi-willing for the occasional romp if it will make my wife happy. Pity that we live in a community where we run into people too often over and over. We couldn’t afford to be known as “that swinging couple” and so I’m not sure how we’ll make it happen, even when my wife finally lets me know whether she wants me to pitch, catch, or do both with a guy.

But even though I’m willing to do these things, there are other things that weird me out. And even though it seems that my wife also isn’t interested in such areas, who knows? Maybe she is, but is afraid to tell me now. Maybe she wants to take a dump on me. Maybe she wants me to be stoned out of my mind on something while we make love. For all I know, maybe she’d love for me to fuck a sheep, though I seriously doubt it.  Maybe she wants to cut and burn me. These are just a few of a very small number of areas I’ve declared off-limits for me, but then I fear sometimes: What if I’ve ruled out an area that my wife secretly desires? What if I am potentially holding back some kink of hers with my own discomfort? And is it right that I stick to all my boundaries, since I have so few of them really, or do some of them need to have holes punched in them?

It’s an uncomfortable thought process at times, but that’s part of pushing the limits, I suppose, isn’t it?

Monday Quickie: “Last Cigarette”

•November 23, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I’ll admit that this probably is borderline erotica at best, and not strictly speaking a smoking fetish story, but hey, I go off on slight tangents from time to time, and this is the scene that came to mind as I sat down to whip out this week’s Monday Quickie…

Last Cigarette

By Smokedawg

Malcolm Dawes had often wondered what “last things” would be like.

How memorable, and how good, would his last act of sex be? What would be the last meal he ate, and would he regret having left this world with that being the final contents of his stomach? What would be the last drink he would have, and would he be lucky enough for it to have been alcoholic, and preferably in his hand when he died?

It was hard not to think about last things, when every day was so likely to be the last one of your life.

Oh, he’d dodged death  many times, he realized that. He was even proud of it; that kind of thing wasn’t just luck. He had skill, and it had carried him through the grimiest, dirtiest kinds of espionage largely unscathed. Sniper assassinations. Up-close wet-work. Kidnappings. Extortion. And so much, much more.

But I’m not surviving this one, he thought, taking a drag on his cigarette as he hunched behind several pieces of very heavy furniture. Eventually, they are going to realize that I’m almost out of bullets. Then they will rush me. And I will be torn to bits by a hail of automatic gunfire from several very justifiably irate men.

He savored the taste of the smoke in his mouth. He held it there for a long time, then sucked it down into his lungs, and held it there for a while too, and then reluctantly released it. He absently fired off a couple more shots just to dissuade them from rushing his position too soon, and took another drag.

Then, gone. Down to the filter. Nothing more. A smoldering, soon-to-die smoke. A butt that he would flick away in moments.

It would have been nice, in the absence of anyone to fuck right now, or any food to eat, or booze to drink, if he had another cigarette to smoke before death came calling. But his pack was in his coat, and that was clear across the room. In fact, the smoke he had just finished was given to him by his colleague, Beatrice, currently dead thanks to a stray shot that had sent a chandelier crashing down on her torso and legs a few minutes earlier. Sadly, her purse, and thus the rest of her smokes, were pinned under a rather heavy part of the chandelier right now, and besides, reaching for it would make him a easy target.

We had been sharing this final smoke break together though, he realized, and he looked to her face, something he had been avoiding for a while now. He had rather liked and respected her, and didn’t relish seeing what had been done to her. Surprisingly, her face had fared well, with only a few cuts. The dead, staring eyes he could do without though, and he closed them. He also reached down and plucked the half-smoked cigarette from her lips, which had been his true goal once he realized it was still there. Whether her blood or the rush of air from the falling chandelier had smothered its fire, who knew? All Malcolm knew was that this last half of Beatrice’s last 120mm cigarette was truly going to be the last smoke of his life.

He fired off another couple shots, and relit her cigarette with the almost-dead butt of his own used-up smoke.

Bea’s lipstick was thick on the filter of that cigarette, and it added a special piquant taste. Even a special tactile sensation on Malcolm’s lips. Oh, this would be a special cigarette indeed for his last smoke. Something memorable. A cigarette from a dead woman, still tasting of her.

And how wonderful she tasted—every part of her. He’d certainly sampled her enough times over the years to know so. And was it two days ago? Or three? They’d met in his room at the Palms, and been all over each other without preamble. Had they both sensed what would happen tonight?

Her mouth tasted of scotch and tobacco, and it was the sweetest complement to the taste of lust that also lay on her tongue. Her lipstick added the perfumey, chemical counterpoint to it all, like sweet frosting on a spiced pastry. But their rough kisses didn’t last long before she was smearing lipstick on his cock instead of his mouth.

A few minutes after that, they were both completely naked, her bent over the edge of the bed and he with one hand cupping her left hip and the other one her right breast, as he slid between her thighs and into her pussy from behind. He rode her in rising and falling strokes, his mouth sucking first at her shoulder before finally and slowly making its way to her neck and ear. He called her “slut” and “darling” and called her “bitch” and “angel” and meant every word. She pushed back against him, her hand gripping his ass cheeks and pulling him tightly into her sex and she forced him to come, long before his pride would normally have allowed him to seek release. And she screamed in passion even as he howled in it.

And now, this last cigarette as he waited to die. This last taste of tobacco. This small taste of death, but the cigarettes wouldn’t kill him. No, that honor belonged to bullets. This last taste of Bea’s mouth on the filter of this pilfered smoke.

Memories of their second time fucking that night, and the smell of her post-coital cigarette as it wove a blanket of bittersweet smoke over their sweaty, satiated bodies.

And then, he realized, his cock was hard with the memories, and this last cigarette was burned down to the filter.

Fuck. I hate waiting. Dad always said impatience would get me in the end.

He stood up as he flicked the cigarette away. As he opened fire and let the smell of gunsmoke mix with the final traces of Bea’s smoke. His smoke.

Their smoke.

Coming Next

•November 23, 2009 • 2 Comments

I expect to have either a new chapter of “Picture Perfect” or a new chapter of “Seven Sins” out by tomorrow, followed a day or two later by yet another update to “Bad Girl.”

No, I’m not pressuring myself or stressing out.

Just hate to have a day without a post of some sort, and don’t have any commentary right now, nor any particular fiction by others to point to.

Bad Girl, Part 8

•November 22, 2009 • 3 Comments

Yup. Deanna, Leslie and Lindsey clearly have a hold on me right now. Just a couple days after part 7, and already a new chapter to post, and probably another new one before midweek…

Bad Girl

By Smokedawg

PART EIGHT:

(To see all the available chapters in the “Bad Girl” series, click here.)

Whatever am I going to do with the two of you?

The words sent a shiver up and down Lindsey’s spine, and she was having trouble determining how much of that was from fear and how much was from a thrilling mix of curiosity and desire. Deanna had said the words lightly, with a clearly amused tone, but even so, there was an undercurrent there—some genuine contemplation of what she wanted to do with Leslie and with Lindsey, either together or separately.

This was a woman just a few years Leslie’s senior and even more so Lindsey’s. She had ushered in the beginning of Leslie’s evolution into someone who straddled a world of light and shadows. As much as Lindsey loved and even sometimes respected Leslie’s choices, she still questioned many of them. Leslie wasn’t a wicked person, but she did wicked things.

Deanna had begun teaching her those things eight years ago or more, and still apparently taught her new even these days. And probably on a semi-regular basis. Deanna had started Leslie off, and had gotten plenty of practice since then, and probably on lots of people more world-wise than Lindsey was. Lindsey was already a little concerned about being snagged in Leslie’s shadowy web. And now to find out that Leslie herself was firmly caught in the sultry and possibly kinky web of Deanna…

I can still leave, Lindsey thought. I’m still a “good girl.” Only Leslie really knows I’ve taken these small steps, and she’ll keep my secrets as well as I’ve kept hers. She’ll still love me if I abandon this path. I can return to my old life; my old ways.

Even as she thought that, she was irritated at herself. She’d only just taken these intriguing steps, and already she was getting ready to run away. She couldn’t stomach the thought of giving up. Of giving in. Of being just what everyone else expected. A good girl that had to be protected.

And worse, she wasn’t about to show weakness and fear in front of Deanna. Some part of her still craved the woman’s attention and regard, even all these years later. It was as if no time at all had passed since Lindsey had begun to feel the first faint stirrings of womanhood deep down, and put Deanna on some dark pedestal in the brief time she had watched her when the parents were out.

Deanna’s eyes were vaguely, tangentially on Lindsey’s own during this reverie, and were completely locked with hers now. In an instant, Lindsey knew that many of her fears and desires and determination must have shown on her face, as Deanna smiled a dark, knowing smile. As her moist, painted lips smiled the grin of some seductive patroness.

“You’ll stay, won’t you?” Deanna asked, cocking her wrist, putting her cigarette to her lips, and pulling smoking into her lungs. But her words, while phrased as a question, were anything but. They were almost more like a charm worked on Lindsey. Honey and red wine in those words. Sweetness and intoxication. Knowledge of Lindsey’s fears, yet determination to win over her mind somehow. Those simple words, disguised as a question but really presented as an imperative, rooting Lindsey to the spot and reinforced her already growing desire not to flee. “I do so want to catch up with you a bit soon.”

With that, Deanna turned back to Leslie with a feline grace. An almost predatory grace simply in the delicate and purposeful way her eyes and neck moved and the way she smiled mysteriously and lustily, and Lindsey knew she was being dismissed for a moment. No disdain nor even rudeness. But Deanna made clear in her tone and gestures that it was time for her to speak with the older sister now, and that Lindsey must, regrettably, be silent for now.

So much unspoken by Deanna, yet so much said, Lindsey mused.

Lindsey shivered again, and knew it this time to be much more desire than fear in that reaction.

“Leslie,” Deanna said, doing a quick snap inhale, the white ball of smoke stark in her mouth, framed by ruby-red lips, “why don’t you tell me what’s going on?” The words held no judgment, no anger. But they held a wealth of curiosity, mingled with surprise, longing, command and passion.

“I’ve been wanting to help my sister along more…interesting pursuits…for a long time,” Leslie replied, almost shyly. Lindsey noted that she wasn’t precisely submissive in Deanna’s presence, but she was deferential. And yet also intimate. Deanna was to Leslie, Lindsey suspected, both teacher and lover, both confessor and guide. “I finally broke through tonight, and I wanted to bring her to see you. I wanted to make sure that I didn’t…”

“Make a misstep?” Deanna offered gently at Leslie’s hesitation.

“That’s it exactly. I see so much of how I was way back then in her, and I don’t know if I’m far enough along my own path to do it without help. To help her find what she needs.”

“And what you need, too? And perhaps what I might want?”

“Yes. All those things,” Leslie admitted, unconcerned that she and Deanna were talking about Lindsey, and still not to her.

And still, I don’t feel like I’m being ignored, and that’s the curious thing, Lindsey considered. I’m part of this conversation, and expected to be, but they don’t think I understand enough to contribute. And the damnable thing is that I suspect they’re right.

Deanna paused, and it was clear she was mulling something over as she took another drag on her smoke and exhaled into the air above them. Almost calculating…

“Leslie, how old is Lindsey?”

Why am I not offended that she doesn’t ask me my own age?

“She’s 17.”

“Leslie,” Deanna chided gently. “This club is for college students mostly, and young professionals. Mostly. It’s 18 and over.”

“She’s 18 in just under three months,” Leslie noted. “And if you recall, you started on me before I was quite 13.”

Deanna laughed. “Yes, but I was a teen myself then, and thus prone to rash, hormonal decisions that weren’t always wise.”

“You seemed awfully wise in a lot of things to me, even back then,” Leslie said, “and I don’t think I’m just remembering you in a fonder light.”

Deanna smiled at the honest, unforced flattery. It was such a natural affection and respect that Leslie felt for her, Lindsey could tell. If not love, then something so very, very close to it.

“I suppose I was an early bloomer,” she answered, then sighed. “Well, she’s very close to 18, and technically, old enough for any fun I might consider to be technically legal. Certainly not considered abuse. But when you bring her, only here to the back, where it’s private. Controlled. Not up front until she’s legal.”

“Wouldn’t think of it,” Leslie said with a grin, clearly relieved to have Deanna join forces with her in Lindsey’s corruption.

“Now,” Deanna said, her quiet word infused with gravity, “what has your sister been up to with you, Lindsey?”

“Well, she gave me a makeover,” Lindsey said, finding it surprising that her voice came out without a squeak. But it was still barely above a whisper. This was all so disorienting. “And she got me smoking my first cigarette. Or two.”

“Well, striking makeup and sexy clothes,” Deanna said, “and smoking. The major ingredients for a bad girl. Except perhaps missing the drinking part.”

“I can hold my wine,” Lindsey said. “and other things. I don’t drink much, but it wouldn’t be new to me. Leslie can’t teach me much there.”

“Well, she might be able to teach you a few things about body shots and other entertaining ways to enjoy alcohol,” Deanna said with a wink.

“Deanna,” Leslie ventured with polite interruption, “about that smoking—I got a surprise there…”

Lindsey shot her sister a look, half-pleading and half-stern, then felt her irritation drain away as she saw something strange on her older sister’s face. Something like wonder. Or amazement. Or even pride, and she hung her head a little in resignation. Except that it wasn’t shame she felt; she kind of wanted Leslie to share this knowledge with Deanna. Sexy, smoking Deanna.

“I think I already know,” Deanna said, slowly drawing smoke from the butt of her cigarette, and releasing it at an even more leisurely pace. “Lindsey’s eyes hardly ever leave my cigarette. And when I inhale…or exhale…she seems particularly…attentive.”

Lindsey blushed at that.

“Yeah, she seems to have a bit of a smoking kink buried in there,” Leslie said. “I figured she was repressing some things with smoking, but I thought it was just fear of starting. Or concern about what people would think. I didn’t expect something sexual. It’s kind of neat. Fun actually. Amazing, really. But while I think smoking is sexy, I don’t know really what to do with a…”

“Fetish?” Deanna offered, and laughed a quiet, throaty, lusty laugh as both Watson sisters nodded in unison.

“Kevin,” Deanna called out to someone behind her. “Call up Rich. Tell him to get his ass over here right away. Tell him I have a very sexy chore for him.”

Deanna’s fingers brushed Lindsey’s chin, and lifted her face up to look into her eyes. Lindsey knew she was still blushing.

“Make yourself at home,” Lindsey. “I have other duties and responsibilities. And other guests. I’ll be back with you later. Don’t worry, Lindsey,” she cooed reassuringly, then took a slow drag on her cigarette and blew smoke just below Lindsey’s face, the cloud spreading out across the teen’s bosom and drifting back up between them. “You’re in very good hands now.”

Weekend Off?

•November 22, 2009 • 2 Comments

Been chilling out this weekend, and ignoring my fetish writing muse, even though she keeps whispering smoky things in my ear.

I might get something up this evening, and if I do, it’s likely to be yet another installment of “Bad Girl,” as the next scene and next step in Lindsey’s journey is very clear in my mind, and if I ignore that smoking fetish muse too long, she might get indignant.

;-)

Bad Girl, Part 7

•November 20, 2009 • 2 Comments

Bad Girl

By Smokedawg

PART SEVEN:

(To see all the available chapters in the “Bad Girl” series, click here.)

Following her older sister toward The Next Step, Lindsey felt a little tremble in her belly, but mostly a sort of resigned calm overall. She had accepted that she was being led on a journey, but didn’t resent it. She wondered at what was yet to come on this first night as a fledgling bad girl, but she didn’t fear it.

She was, however, a bit startled, as she veered automatically toward the club’s front door, and was suddenly yanked in an entirely different direction, Leslie pulling her by her arm and laughing a little.

“No front door for us, Linds,” she said. Instead, she brought Lindsey to a side door. The younger sister had visions of some secret knock and some burly bouncer peeking out to say, “What the hell do you want?”

Nothing of the sort happened. Instead, Leslie reached into her purse, pulled out her keys, and selected one from her key ring that had a green rubber grip on it, almost matching the shade of green that most of The Next Step was painted. She slipped it into the doorknob, unlocked the door, and led her sister inside a modestly lit hallway that seemed to lead toward the back of the building.

“You have a key to the back door?” Lindsey asked incredulously.

“Well, truth be told, it’s a side door, Linds. There is no ‘back’ door here.”

“OK, I stand corrected, Les. Why do you have a key to the place?”

“Because I’m a special kind of guest, Linds. Because I know the owner’s daughter, who might as well be the owner herself. Hell, she probably will be in a couple years.”

All of this was said as they walked, and Lindsey noted with mild concern the smell of faint cigarette smoke in the air. That disturbed her on two levels. First, no smoking rules reigned in this city in public spaces, so that meant they must be approaching some private area in this club; somewhere that Lindsey might not gracefully be able to leave if Leslie started pushing harder than she liked. Second, and most troubling to her, was the fact she was worried about being openly aroused among smokers other than her sister. She wondered if her desires—her new fetish, she supposed—would be clearly writ on her features.

As they rounded a corner and entered a slightly more intimately lit area, Leslie was in front, and was greeted with a variety of waves and hellos. As Lindsey’s eyes adjusted to the modest change in illumination, she noticed a woman who was clearly the center of things here, even if she wasn’t in the middle of the room. It was that obvious, as if she were the sun holding everyone else in here in orbit with the gravity of her personality. Her dark, almond-shaped eyes immediately fell on both of them, but rested on Leslie most of all. She brushed a lock of wavy black hair away from her gorgeous olive-complected skin and smiled. “Welcome back, Leslie,” she said.

The voice was the clincher, but Lindsey had been certain she knew who it was already. And hadn’t Leslie dropped enough clues along the way for her to have figured it out much earlier?

What was it Leslie had said? Something like: ‘It’s the same trick she had used to open up my eyes and convince me to smoke.’

She taught me a lot of other things, too.

Sometimes she has new things to teach me even these days.

My first decent sexual experience was with one of my high school girlfriends.

I can’t help you find your bad girl alone—or at least I don’t want to.

And when Lindsey had asked who it was that Leslie was bringing her to meet, some answer like: ‘She’s a blast from the past, Linds. Someone you’ve met already, and way more than one time.’

Leslie’s former babysitter; the last one she had ever had. And for a very brief time thereafter, Lindsey’s babysitter, too.

Deanna.

The woman who, as a teen, had taught Leslie to smoke when Les was just 12—Lindsey recalled clearly that Les had started to smoke at 12. Deanna probably would have been 16 then. How long after that had she begun to initiate Leslie in the paths that led inevitably to sex? Probably starting with kisses and light stuff, maybe nothing more than touches through the material of their clothing, and then let her explore on her own with others, probably. Until they were both in high school together and Leslie got her first go-round with truly good sex, apparently—with Deanna. When Leslie was a freshman and Deanna had been a senior—having been held back a year in junior high school, as Lindsey recalled, for partying too much and studying too little.

Amazing how many things we lock away in our memories only to have crash out around our feet when we stick the right key into that old locked crowded mental closet door and it opens too fast, knocking us over because so much shit was stuffed inside, Lindsey considered. And Deanna was the key right now. And Leslie the hand that had turned her in the lock.

Deanna had been Leslie’s babysitter for less than a year. She hadn’t been Lindsey’s then; Lindsey tended to stay over at her best friend’s house when she and Les’ parents were at business or social events of out of town. And then, a few months after Les had begun smoking off and on—a practice she had told Lindsey about almost immediately—their parents had announced that Deanna wouldn’t watch Leslie anymore.

It wasn’t because of anything that Deanna did with Leslie, Lindsey realized. They still liked Deanna at the time—very much—and they never knew the extent of Leslie’s bad girl escapades like Lindsey did. They would have been furious had they known what behaviors Deanna had initiated Les to in life. But somehow, the things that Deanna had begun to teach Les had transformed her into the kind of person that their parents suddenly trusted to be on her own for a night or even a few days.

Then, a few months later, when my best friend’s father got transferred to Asia for his job, I needed a babysitter, Lindsey recalled. Deanna. They hired Deanna. And now that I think about it, in those early days, didn’t she look at me in a peculiar and appraising way? Had she been thinking that perhaps she might have another Watson girl to initiate to wicked things?

And didn’t I always secretly envy Deanna’s dark and lovely appearance? Didn’t I dream of growing up to be like her one day? Didn’t I try to seem smart and interesting when she was around? Didn’t I crave her attention? And how many people in this room, tonight, feel the same way? How much does my sister feel that way, too, even as in-control as she is with everyone else?

Everything was falling into place for Lindsey. Except for why Leslie felt she needed Deanna’s help in bringing out Lindsey’s bad girl side.

Deanna stood up, walked over to them, and gave Leslie a kiss. It wasn’t an overtly sexual one, Lindsey noted, but it was the kind that hints at more than mere friendship, and suggested that deeper and wetter kisses would have followed if they were in a less crowded setting. Then Deanna pulled a pack of cigarettes and a lighter from the back pocket of her low-rise jeans, and lit it, blowing her first exhale straight up into the air. And then she looked at Lindsey.

“What’s this, Leslie? A gift for me? Oh,” she said then, putting the filter of the cigarette to her lips, her cheeks hollowing and her eyes locking on Lindsey’s. She blew the smoke off the side of Lindsey, and smiled. “No, not a gift, I suppose. Or not yet, anyway. Lindsey. My how you’ve grown up. Oh, Leslie, have you been up to naughtiness? Are you making your own creations now? Tsk, tsk.”

Deanna laughed softly, drew deep on her cigarette, and, with her words expelling smoke on every syllable, she added, “What ever am I going to do with the two of you?”

Bad Girl Approaching

•November 19, 2009 • 1 Comment

Damn the gods of journalistic deadlines that kept me from writing the latest chapter for “Bad Girl.” I have material trying to spill out of my ears for that chapter and the next one, and I’m dying to get them out in writing.

Hoping to have the next chapter posted on Friday afternoon or evening, and another one a day or two later.

Bound Flesh

•November 18, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Well, this certainly helps me fill space with minimal work on my part.

Celis T. Rono is back from her very extended trip to India, her writer’s collective blog is back in action again, and she’s posted two new stories this week. One by one of my top-10 favorite erotica writers, Lexi Sylver, titled “A Thirst for Truth.” (click here to read it)

And the other a piece of fiction by my own hand (written around six weeks ago), “Bound Flesh” which, though not smoking-related, does have plenty of sex in it, as well as a science fiction backdrop. (click here to read it)